Butterfly

Yesterday I went outside
With my momma's mason jar
Caught a lovely Butterfly
When I woke up today
Looked in on my fairy pet
She had withered all away
No more sighing in her breast
I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away
I smell you on my hand for days
I can't wash away your scent
If I'm a dog then you're a bitch
I guess you're as real as me
Maybe I can live with that
Maybe I need fantasies
A life of chasing butterfly

I'm sorry for what I did
I did what my body told me to
I didn't mean to do you harm
Everytime I pin down what I think I want
It slips away - the ghost slips away

I told you I would return
When the robin makes his nest
But I ain't never coming back
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Hello, you fool, I love you

Yes, you.

I love you.

I found it amusing that you asked if I still loved you.

Of course I do, silly. How can I not?

You said it yourself, "How can I say I love you today, and change my mind tomorrow?"

I love you, Bee. And that's not going to change tomorrow, or the day after.

It still feels so surreal.

That you held my hand, that you kissed me, that you fell asleep at my side.

But I came home and woke up without you the next morning.

And I knew that the 6 days spent with you was no dream.

12 days and counting

I'm counting down the days, Bee.

12 days till we meet.

What would it be like? Would you hold my hand? Would we stare at our toes?

Or would we start talking like we've known each other forever?

It all seems so surreal.

That I'm finally going to see you. After months of falling asleep with each other every night, thousands of miles apart.

I can't wait, Bee.

I can't wait to tell you that I love you.

Fight

Was that a fight?

People say fights bring couples closer to each other.

Don't worry.

Even when I'm angry at you, I never once forgot that I love you.

14

Happy Valentine's Day, darling.

Here's to a lifetime of Valentine's Days together.

I woke up this morning, and I realized I need you

Today, more than any other day.

It has only been a day that she's gone.

But I miss her already.

Her

Has it ever occurred to you that I cringe every time you talk about your ex?

I would like to say that I don't mind listening.

Sometimes, I might even laugh at the things you did with her.

But, really.

Inside, I'm not that cool with it, after all.